Snow White Personal

Watching Eurovision Song Contest right now..
Soon it’ll be Germany’s turn. Whoop whoop!!
Love Cascada. But I think their new song is so lame….

Beauty purchase of the month

I don’t even know if it was worth the money, since I spent nearly 70 euros on 2 different kits that don’t even contain the products in full sizes.
But Benefit’s High Beam totally met my expectations. And I even grew to love the Cha Cha Tint the most  of all products. Gonna purchase them in full sizes I guess.

This is the first time ever that I really bought Benefit cosmetics products rather than going into a make up store and randomly swatch all their beams and tints onto my face and just walking away. haha

Past memories

Just when I was about to go to sleep I was disturbed by serious thoughts..

It’s 5 am and I can’t sleep. My mind is full of memories I haven’t called up / retrieved in a very long time. (What vocabulary does one uses referring to “memories”? Can I use “retrieve”? LOL. Low English skills again.)
I just realized I’ve  hurt a great number of people once being  important to me by rejecting, ignoring their feelings towards me or by even cutting them entirely off my life. 
They either were too hurt or I just could not bear the embarrassment I did to them and to myself. People keep saying “better late than never”. And I keep saying that to myself, but I never manage to keep up with the majority of “normal” people.
I might sound like a horrible person now, but I usually don’t stick to certain persons for too long. Except for my own family. 
I don’t regret cutting  off all those people at all. I came to accept the disgusting part of my person during the last few years.
The only thing I can say is I am truly sorry for being a coward, sometimes an emo preferring to spend most of the time alone. I just need space, a lot of space and time.
Time to develop a deep connection with people.
I am sorry for having hurt you all. I am sorry for not having the courage to tell you in person. And I am sorry for having been a burden to you.
Nevertheless, I appreciate the time you spent with me and your  faith  in me. 
I am trying hard to become a better person. I think I’m improving even when only slowly.

That’s  all for now. To all the non-tumblr followers: Thanks for reading ! I appreciate it! : )

It isn’t a fictional story but rather a monologue that derives from my dearest and honest feelings.  

(You may keep all the misspellings and grammar mistakes.) 

♡ buying and collecting antiques-like accessories

I used to collect different kinds of maks. This is the latest of my (no-more-existing) collection. Kinda lost / threw the entire collection away when moving into my own apartment. :’(
And… some random picture because I’m hungry and am craving for delicious sweets. #Dunkin Donuts ♥

(Source: msvintage-personal)

Anonymous asked: I saw your old post from fb, that you think about stop your private blog. I hope you won't! :( I would like to read your serious thoughts and that stuff! Greets from a fan!

Thank you for following and messaging to me. I appreciate it! ^^
I’ve lost so many followers recently. :( I just had the thought of moving to Blogspot.  I created a tumbleblog to stay in touch with international contacts and friends. Blogging on tumblr had never been that easy. I knew that but was kinda attracted to those beautiful templates. haha. 
Well, I won’t give up this blog for now. We’ll see how everything will turn out in future :) 

Anonymous asked: Where is your camera? :D

Was at home, at my parents’. But fortunately, they brought it with them when visiting me last week. :)

Oops..

I lost so many followers! :(
Sorry for being busy. I’m gonna integrate you guys more into my everyday life.
I’m still a university student, haven’t dropped out yet. hahahahaha. 

But I really need to get my camera back. Nothing is more boring than a never-ending text post without any pictures..